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phisting: if you’re going to call me a bitch i need at least 5 reasons and examples with each one...

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 23:35:44 -0400

if you’re going to call me a bitch i need at least 5 reasons and examples with each one written in paragraph form with your name and date in the top right hand corner due monday

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Mon, 27 Aug 2012 23:34:05 -0400

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Thu, 23 Aug 2012 23:08:06 -0400

Had a bad night and ended up cutting myself. My boyfriend said he thought I was done with it, since...

Thu, 23 Aug 2012 01:42:29 -0400

Had a bad night and ended up cutting myself. My boyfriend said he thought I was done with it, since I started taking my meds. News flash, antidepressants aren’t magical pills that fix everything.

I noticed you mentioned taking celexa, my doctor asked me if I wanted to try it. But I'm concerned about the side effects, mainly sexual side effects. Have you had trouble with any sexual side effects since taking celexa? Thanks for taking the time to read this. :-)

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 12:40:32 -0400

Any SSRI has a risk of sexual side effects, and im guessing thats probably along the lines of anything youd be put on. To be honest, ive never been a very sexual person, but I have noticed some of those side effects. Sorry for the TMI, but its harder to reach an orgasm, which is one of the common side effects. I was super concerned about it before i started taking it, but to be honest the good definitely outweighs the bad, at least for me :) Its not like sex all of a sudden repulses you or anything really dramatic. Long story short, don’t worry too much about the sexual side effects :) every person is different and you might not even experience that one. Best of luck to you!

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 02:32:22 -0400

Stay strong beautiful

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 02:23:58 -0400

The support from people I don’t even know is amazing. Thank you guys. For real

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 02:22:05 -0400

advice-by-a-real-story:

I hate the nights when i dont sleep.
Not because my minds racing but because i feel nothing.
No regret for cutting.
No sadness for losing someone.
Nothing.
I feel secluded from the world.
Like im already dead.
Then i think about it…
And thats when it starts.
All the ways i can do it.
The happiness i would finally have.
Wanting to just end it…

Bored?

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 02:03:42 -0400

Distract me please.

Invade my privacy. Ask questions, personal help, about me, anything.

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:57:29 -0400

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:56:51 -0400

You're fucking gorgeous, and a lovely human being. You deserve a wonderful life.

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:46:58 -0400

as do you.

Thank you so much

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:36:58 -0400

Great.

Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:32:05 -0400

For some reason, I just really want to cut right now. Im not sure where this is coming from. Nothing terrible has even happened today. I haven’t cut for a month and I really dont want to ruin it. Plus this is the longest ive gone since I started.

No one will probably read this or care, but I wanted to at least try to do something that might help before I fuck up a month of progress and it wasn’t about to go on my main blog.

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:28:13 -0400

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Thu, 16 Aug 2012 01:26:00 -0400

Im going to kill myself. I really cant take this anymore. I wanted to let someone know tomorrow I'll be gone.

Tue, 14 Aug 2012 00:39:30 -0400

Please, don’t kill yourself. Message me off anon, I will give you my phone number and call and talk to me or text. Whatever is happening, you are STRONG enough to get through it. I know you are. Stay alive for your friends and your family and pets and anything and everything else. If you think no one cares, THINK AGAIN. I care, and I am a complete stranger. I truly care and i want you to live. You are beautiful, wonderful, amazing and there will never be another you. You have so much to offer the world, please do not end something that has not even began. You are stronger than these feelings, i promise. stay alive my love, you will not regret it <3

About a month ago

Mon, 13 Aug 2012 23:50:06 -0400

I finally got sick of being depressed. The mood swings, suicidal thoughts, cutting, anxiety, it was just too much.

So I went to my doctor and got put on Celexa and let me tell you, I have never been so happy. I have only thought about cutting ONCE in the month ive been on it and the anxiety is at a minimum. I no longer think about suicide or want to slit my wrist open daily. Its helped ENOURMOUSLY with my relationship. Although it will still be a struggle at some points I really hope this continues working.

Damn, a month ago i would have never thought i could feel like this…it kind of bothers me in a way because I have to take medication to feel normal but Id rather have it this way than constantly cutting myself, having panic attacks, and attempting to kill myself.

Sorry for the rant, and just had to type that out :) I hope i can still use what ive been through to help people though. At least for now im feeling 100 times better than i used to :)

PLEASE still feel free to ask questions or for help or anything :) im always happy to talk to anyone!

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Sat, 02 Jun 2012 02:49:20 -0400

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Wed, 23 May 2012 04:55:55 -0400